Since we’ve moved out to the burbs last year, I’ve spent a lot of time exploring all the great trails in our area, but I had yet to go for a run. With the crazy heat wave we’d been experiencing finally behind us, I thought I would get my first run in over two years under my belt this morning. After lacing up my shoes, grabbing my iPhone and doing a quick bounce test to make sure my sports bra was still functional (it was – yay!), I hurried up and left before I had a chance to change my mind about it. After a minute or two of walking, I picked up the pace to a jog and was […]
Yes, I really do think I’m pretty
Why is it that it makes me a little nervous to say that I’m happy with how I look? This past year, it seems I’ve seen a lot things on the topic of developing positive body image, and I think it’s a wonderful thing. It’s gotten me thinking a lot about how I feel about myself. Over the years, I’ve been through a few changes – puberty, weight gain, weight loss, pregnancy, giving birth. To me, they are big events in my existence, as they are for many others – things that have changed my perspective on how I live my life and feel about myself. And at this very moment in time, I’m very happy with how my body […]
There goes my hero
Three years ago I met my hero. She was awesome. She did things she, and probably everyone who knew her, thought she could never do. When from the outside, it looked like everything was falling apart, she was keeping it together, drawing on magical super-powers that helped her bounce back up from every little trip and stumble. Ever since that time, I’ve been trying to be just like her. I reflect back on her every move and see if I can replicate what she had achieved. Yes, I know that it doesn’t do us any good to compare ourselves to others or even idolize them, but it gets a little tricky when that idol is you. One of the joys […]
An update, but not upbeat
It’s been a really long time since I last wrote. I’ve thought about my blog often, but in the end would always stay away. I’ve said before how it’s hardest to write when you don’t have anything good to write about. When you’re sad and angry and what you want most is to hide from the world until it all goes away. And I’ve often said how it’s precisely during those times that writing is what helps me most. What helps me get through things and see them in a different light. At this moment, I’m doubtful that it will help, but it’s all that comes to mind. So here goes. I’m not very happy. At all. I have all the material things one needs to […]
Happy Dance
I have something rather embarrassing to admit. Well, it’s embarrassing to me anyway. Although I can appreciate many different types of music, over the years, I’ve mostly stuck to the louder, angrier, more rockin’ variety of tunes. Every once in a while, I would download a catchy dance tune but was quick to bury it deep down in an obscure list on my iPod so that no one could discover my dirty little dancey secret. But that was the extent of it. So why, at some point last week, I had a sudden urge to listen to dance radio stations, to the point that I programmed four of them into my car stereo, was an utterly puzzling and slightly very […]
Two broads in a boat
I’m just steps away from the house I used to live in with my ex-husband out in the suburbs. Actually, I’m at the Starbucks that was so conveniently located at the time, and I’m eating, or rather, have already scarfed down a double chocolate chip cookie and I’m making progress on my vanilla latte – two things that are on my “Sylvie don’t eat” list. But today, I don’t care. And you know what? They are both damn, damn good. So good, that I may buy another cookie. Maybe. What’s weird about today is that being here doesn’t feel weird. I normally get this strange déjà vu feeling whenever I come back to these parts, but I was pleasantly surprised […]
One asterisk* for me!
When I was a kid, getting a stamp on my hand was a most awesome, however temporary, reward for some job well done. To this day, I have a secret envy for my teacher friends who have daily access to those cool stamps, and I know that part of the reason I never had a calling to become a school teacher is because the Universe knows that giving me a push in that direction would without a doubt lead to a moment where I would be found, alone in a classroom, laughing hysterically while stamping madly at any surface I could find. Although I would still love to get my hands on one of those fun stamper doohickeys (preferably a heart or […]
The sickness that sets me straight
An update from Cheeriolala land “We’re sick people, you know that, don’t you?”. It seems that those are the words I most often tell the trainers at the gym when I’m done a workout. You know, when I catch my breath and can actually talk again. Honestly, there are some times when I’m just plain amazed I got through it, and today was one of those days. I know the word of choice this week seems to have been puke, and I was a little worried that it might literally come up today when I saw the workout scrawled onto the whiteboard: 5 rounds, for time of 80 skips (like when you skipped in grade school, but without the little […]
The 6 month review
An update from Cheerio lala land Wow. I am nervous. It’s really silly, since I’m here all by myself, sitting on the couch, but I have butterflies in my stomach and yeah, it’s full blown nervousness. Out of nowhere, this lovely little thought popped into my head: exactly 6 months ago today, I presented my boss with a resignation letter and my plan to leave to go pursue “something else”. I don’t know where the guts to do it came from exactly, and I certainly didn’t have a rock-solid plan, but I leaped, and time has just flown by ever since. Instead of feeling nostalgic over that moment, it’s as though another side of my personality, one that is authoritative yet fair, […]
My apologies to the chickens
An update from Cheerio lala land What is wrong with this picture: I’m sitting on my couch in my brand new apartment, trying to start my June article for Lightworker Magazine. There’s loud music playing, I’m sipping on a cup of coffee, and I just polished off a spinach, chicken and goat cheese salad. My tasty quicky “pizza” from last night on a brown rice tortilla with goat mozarella, zucchini, olives and basil. Yes indeed, it seems this whole vegan thing isn’t quite working out anymore. I feel better and a little sad all at once. There’s a lot less stress associated with eating when you don’t have to rule out so much, but there’s the feeling of giving in […]